Samuel Ocean

Hmmm. It's been a while.

Enjoying university immensly. On winter break right now and can't wait to go back. As and Bs my first semester, and newfriendsyay. I've taken up karate, and by god, we are a band of misfits that constantly get broken in some way, shape, or form. No place in the area to do Schutzhund or whatever (the closest is about an hour away and I currently lack a vehicle), but I don't have a real dog yet, so... mreh.

Right now it's kind of 'whatever' in regards to the dog. I can't get a new dog until I a) get a job, b) move out of the dorms c) have a car, and d) have the time and money to devote to it. I figured that my first dog would be a German Shepherd from Czech or DDR working lines, though several people have been pushing me towards Dutch Shepherds or Malinois. I just... don't feel like I'm ready/crazy enough to take on that level of nonstop OMGBALLBALLBALLWORKWORKWORKYAYYYYYYY. I want to get an 'easier' dog to start off with, train him/her to a Sch. 3, then move on to a more difficult dog and do the same thing, then move on to other dog sports like Mondio, if I can find people in my area who do it.

I think what separates Schutzhund from the other bite sports is that instead of focusing more on the natural abilities of the dog, it focuses on how well the trainer can train the dog. I mean, yes, the dog has to have -something-, but a good trainer can build up and polish a naturally shitty dog. However, it seems that in other venues and work areas, a flat out shitty dog is a shitty dog and no amount of training is going to make it look pretty.  

That said, my current interest lies in Beaucerons. Dear god, I want a harlequin beacueron. Male, cropped ears. I may have the opportunity to get one in a few years if I'm still itching for one by then. Going to be harder to do bitesports with than a GSD, but I don't care. But if the opportunity passes... German Shepherd it is (I'll be damned if I'll be sucked into the Psychotic world of the Mali just yet). 

A lot has happened in the last several months. I don't know if I want to write it down yet. Perhaps later, as side stories or some such nonsense.



I need to write something fictitious. Some sort of story, but I don't know what. I've been bored as shit for the last two or three weeks, and it's bringing back my depression issues. Not a fan of being left alone with my mind, which is why I try to stay active. The sedentary lifestyle I've been forced to take on is just not okay with me. And I've hit a brick wall with the mutual prompt I gave my brother for our one-story-a-week thing (which was due at least a week ago. Oops)

Be back later. Searching for a muse.

Title: Open season
Author: Samuel Ocean
Fandom: Criminal Minds/Supernatural
Rating: G
Pairings: None
Warnings: None
Summary: "Ladies, this is Brad; a real FBI agent!" Dean decides to use one of his aliases at a bar to pick up chicks. Different version of the bar scene at the beginning of the Criminal Minds episode 'Open Season'.

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Title: Broken Lights
Author: Samuel Ocean
Fandom: Criminal Minds/Dead Like Me
Rating: G
Pairings: None
Warnings: None
Summary: It was when he finally began drawing similarities between himself and the psychopath that he knew he needed to get out. He felt as if he were suffocating beneath everything. He had lost his belief in happy endings, and it devastated him.

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So. I graduate high school on June 10th.

Finally.

Graduated the community college's EMT-Basic certificate program last week (or maybe the week before, I don't remember). I take the state test on the 4th, and the national registry... remains to be seen, since it costs $70 and I lack money right now. Still.

I also take my state CNA exam on June 14th. Whoo. e__e

Found out that I'm going to live on-campus at university. They want to put me in a private room, which I am a-okay with, although my friend, who wants to room with me, is not. I don't know... I put him down as my 'roommate,' but he's an ass and I can already see one of us ending up smothered by a pillow in the middle of the night, or breaking each other's face, or something. He's been my friend since fifth grade, but I can only handle him in small doses. He's too immature and inconsiderate and asshole-ish to hang around with for long periods of time. He's really... what's the word? Cliquey? Judgmental? Something like that.

I've started Schutzhund training the past several weeks. Which has been FUN. Randomly met the guy I'm training with at a city spring festival that I was originally not going to go to (and knew I was going to get kicked out of anyway because I had my dog with me) on my way back from the dog park. I've been doing helper work, and just doing some obedience and tracking work with my dog (who has no drive whatsoever and is solely food-motivated). I want a working dog so badly, heh. But... not for another year, at least. The guy wants to get me a pup or young dog to train (and keep at his place), but I'm leaving at the beginning of August, and I'll be out of the country for a week in July, (which is one of the reasons I've given up on getting an actual job until I get to Uni). If only I could have met this guy last year, heh.

Gods, I hate not having a paying job right now. And, you know, money by default.

I'm going to be DROWNING in debt by the time I'm out of college, even though I plan on working 48-hour weeks (2 24 hour shifts as an EMT or ER-Tech). $7 dollars an hour really isn't all that much.

In-state tuition for school is going to be at least 14k+ a year (books, meal plan, etc. included).

I just... really hope I get copious amounts of free money before I start school. Especially to cover the cost of housing, which is going to have to be off-campus and is going to kill me (I have to take my dog with me, so I had to find a dog-friendly apartment). Let's see, for the apartment alone:

$250 to reserve (goes towards the $500 deposit)
$500 deposit
$250 Dog Privilege fee
$535/month for general rent
$15/month for a 'dog premium' fee.
Plus electricity.

All in all, it honestly isn't that bad, and I'll only be paying slightly more than what I would ahve been had I been living in the dorms (not to mention that I don't have to worry about getting kicked out around holidays/during the summer, and having to pay extra stupid hidden fees). But when you don't have money to bloody start with (my last $150 went towards my tuition deposit)...

I really want to make it out to see my brother this summer. Been planning it for years... So that's another $350+.

I also have 'Senior Dues' to pay ($70 at this point), even though I don't take part in any of the activities that the dues are supposed to cover (hell, I'm only even at the school for half a day). Don't pay them, I don't graduate. e_e

My mum pays for a lot of things, and I will pay her back someday for them. Hell, she pays the insurance and gas for the truck (which will stop once I move out), she's paying for the cruise I'm going on to Mexico with a friend's family as a graduation gift, she's paying for my high school graduation things (which I think are a waste of money; I don't care about the graduation ceremony. Just give me the damned diploma so I can leave), my medical bills, and other miscellaneous things. As an unemployed/disabled vet/in-school single mother with two children who gets nothing but retirement and minimal child support. Most of the money I earn babysitting or doing yardwork for friends ends up going to my mother, groceries, or paying for something school-related.

My father, however... despite adding numerous rooms onto his house, buying new vehicles and dogs, new furniture and expensive rugs, installing a hot tub, etc... Claims he has no money whenever I ask him to help out with something. Very, very rarely will he and my stepmother aid my mother and I in my stupid school and medical expenses. They believe that it is not a parent's responsibility to pay for their child's schooling. Though I do find it interesting when I find that they've bought my youngest brother expensive new clothes and whatnot.

I call bullshit.

Anyway.

I'm planning on majoring in Emergency Medical Care (graduate with a BS that covers pre-medicine AND certifies me as a Paramedic) and either minoring or double-majoring in Emergency Disaster Management. Eventually apply to the FBI, and if that didn't work, I'd at least have something (Paramedic and/or med school) to fall back on.

I'm fairly certain that I read somewhere that if you work in public service for ten years, your loan can be forgiven... Hrm...

Happy birthday, JD~ You're turning into an old man. Pretty soon I'll be able to outrun you...








And dammit. So much studying for these EMS classes. Working on Rapid Trauma Assessments now and it's... so much info and so many steps and if you miss something, you fail. x____O

Speaking of trauma... That new show, Trauma? Yeah, it sucks. EPICALLY. I mean, in the first five minutes, they just... did so many things /wrong/ that I was wondering if it was intentional as a 'what not to do' kind of thing...

Sex in the ambulance: Possible. Going to get fired for it if you're caught, but possible.

Paramedic talking to the bystander on scene with the victim before even arriving: No. That would be dispatch's job. Not to mention that they suddenly arrive and got to the roof in a span of five minutes. Not out of breath.

Multiple paramedics on scene: Yeah right. Unless it's a mass casualty incident.

Helicopter: Really? For minor cases: No. High-rise building, maybe possible. But yeah... Still, no. I can only think of a handful of times where the helicopters around here get called out to something other than a transfer.

The characters: So full of fail and drama and just... ew.

Rabbit: I can't even BEGIN to list everything that's just... WRONG and STUPID about this guy. Any EMT henceforth calling themselves 'Rabbit' is to be tarred and feathered. I would refuse to work with this guy, let alone allowing him near other people. Just... everything he does is Wrong.


And this is just the first five minutes. Let's not even get into the rest of the damn thing.

Trauma is to Paramedics/EMTs what CSI is to Forensic Analysts. It's just That Bad.

Just got back from gay camp. Yes, gay camp. For three weeks a year, I work at a summer camp for children (age 8-16) whose parents (or they themselves) are LGBTQ. It's great, and loads of fun. This year, I worked with kids aged 9-11, and they were wonderful. Stubborn as hell at times, but great. I slept in a tent in the middle of the Jersey Pine Barrens for the last three weeks, with no internet access, eating almost nothing but peanut butter and jelly sandwiches because the kids ate the rest of the food. It was fun, and the homesickness for camp hasn't really hit yet, but it will shortly. It will be weird not having to yell at children all of the time now. Meh.

Okay. So I've spent the last few weeks or so watching Criminal Minds. My mum bought the first season for me from Wal-Mart, and from there, I've been watching the rest online. I'm up to season three now.

I read fanfiction, so I obviously knew Gideon was going to be replaced with Rossi. And I thought, okay, I'm going to try to watch this objectively before forming any real opinion, as most of what I've read with him as a character is pretty negative.

First episode with him in it, 3x06. Apparently, he is obsessive about a past case. He carries around a charm bracelet with the children's names on it for christssake. Twenty-odd years have passed, yet he calls the children every year or whatever to let them know how he's doing with the case (their parents had been murdered in front of them). My problem with this is that he just... isn't letting it go. He can't move on, and he isn't letting the kids move on, either. Which... is totally healthy, yaknow. e_e. 

And it's clouding his judgement. He isn't there to be involved with the BAU again. He's got his own agenda. He was retired for ten years, then suddenly up and ready wanted to go back once there was a spot open. While the rest of the team is working on the new case, he's completely focused on the past one.

And then... just the way he operates with the team. He's arrogant, but also acts like he's got something to prove. He may have literally written the book about profiling, but a lot changes in ten years. His word is not law. He also has no clue how the bureau operates at this point in time, and it reflects on his interactions with the team. He isn't fit to be in the position he's in, as he has had no time to assimilate in with the 'new' FBI. Ten years of retirement, and he thinks he still knows anything? Hell, I miss a weekend or two of work, and when I come back, everything has changed. From the way we do paperwork, handling the animals, dealing with people, etc. And I just work in an animal shelter. So for something like the FBI... It's just kind of ridiculous. 

Hotch is his boss, which is something he apparently has an issue with. Because so far, what I've seen with him, he acts like he is in charge. He needs to be reminded of his place. And attacking Hotch's personal life? That's pretty freaking low, man. Hotch's personal life has not affected his job any (unlike Rossi's weird obsession with that past case). So bringing it up just to try to prove yourself to be the 'better' of the two? It's called being a douchebag.  

Maybe my opinion of him will change as he assimilates into the team. But right now? Not impressed.  

Title: Seventy Two Years
Author: Samuel Ocean
Fandom: Fullmetal Alchemist/Harry Potter
Rating: G
Pairings: None
Warnings: None
Summary: In the year 1991, Edward had long since given up hope of returning to Amestris. FMA/HP crossover. Oneshot. Drabble.

 

 

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I decided I needed to rec my fanfiction somewhere other than FF.net.


House/dog sitting for a friend this week. I like getting paid to play with his dogs, eat his food, watch his TV/movies, sleep on his couch, and use his computer. Also procrastinating against the work for my online class.